Want to be cool in 5 mins? HERE’S HOW
Good Bye ESAKA - The King of Fighters 2000 AST
If there was a song that could epitomize coolness, this would be it.
… Except that this song is so ridiculously rare I doubt anyone will be able to find it. D:
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ALSO ALSO
I SAW THIS GUY WHO HAD THE COOLEST LOOKING HAIR EVER
HE HAD AN ‘X’ SHAVED INTO HIS HEAD ON ONE SIDE AND TWO LINES ON THE OTHER
HE WAS SO COOLLLLL
AND THEN HE YELLED AT ME THAT THIS SUPERMARKET DOESN’T SELL ALCOHOL (I was buying Ribena DDDD:)
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THIS DOESN’T PERTAIN TO COOLNESS BUT I NEED TO SHARE:
I NEED NEW PANTS, MY TIGHT ONES ARE FALLING OFF WHAT
I DON’T KNOW IF IT’S THE JEANS GETTING LOOSE OR ME LOSING WEIGHT BUT GODDAMN IT CAN I HAVE SOME PANTS THAT I DON’T HAVE TO PULL UP LOOKING SO UNGLAM IN PUBLIC EVERY 5 SECONDS
Oh hai, still alive
Wow, I’ve neglected writing for more than a month now. I suppose it’s been the lack of any reflection time, and I tell my sister almost everything I’m feeling, which pretty much led to having nothing much to write.
There hasn’t been anything really worth talking about - this blog has always been about myself, and there hasn’t been much reflection these days while staying here. I’ve mostly blown time away playing Warcraft, going out with the family (and a bit with friends) and just relaxing, I suppose.
I went to get my hair cut today, and I guess this is really the reason why I’m writing today. I have trichotillomania, and going to the hairdresser is a gut-wrenching experience. It’s always the same, and the conversation always goes like this:
1. My mom has to explain that I pull my hair so that’s why I have patches on my head,
2. The hairdresser doesn’t listen,
3. She then asks if these patches “occurred naturally or you did something to them” and I have to explain again that I pull my hair.
4. Hairdresser goes into shock, and asks one or more of the following questions: “how long have you done this?”, “doesn’t it hurt?” and the ever encompassing “why?”
5. I say I don’t know why, and hairdresser will launch into a speech on how I should stop pulling and I should find some other form of stress relief.
6. She then proceeds to sell my mother a bunch of expensive hair-care products on how to treat my scalp so the hair grows out faster.
This doesn’t really make me any more endeared to go to the hairdresser. It was only last year that I started going semi-regularly (which is at least once a year, I suppose), and before that my dad has always cut my hair because I was so ashamed to show my patches. I need to have my sister and mom tag along because I feel so insecure by myself there.
I feel increasingly frustrated that because of my shame, I don’t want to specify that I want a fringe, or I’d like it a bit shorter, or whatever. I feel stupid for telling the hairdresser what to do with my hair to make myself look pretty when my patches obviously show that’s never going to happen.
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On a happier note:
Singapore vs China ping pong finals today! SG GO!
Mom’s birthday on the 23rd! SEAFOOD BUFFET HERE I COME
Wall-e on the 28th! YAY!
I’m probably crashing NTU on Friday, to sit in my dad’s tutorials or lectures. CPC, ANY OTHER LECTURES YOU CAN RECOMMEND ME?
Brain brain brain brain
I don’t know if I can call this burnout, but there must be a damn name to this.
I’ve been pretty exhausted from this quarter, and I can probably chalk it up to any number of excuses. The teachers suck; the courses weren’t that interesting; I’m just tired. I literally cannot concentrate at all. It took me an hour to finish 12 pages of stuff that I was skimming though, because I kept getting distracted doing other things. Even writing this very post I keep running off to do other things. This, if I can recall correctly, was something that happened during the Fall Quarter, and God knows how badly I did that quarter.
It’s the exact same weird pattern. I’ll suddenly get interested in things that have laid dormant for some time, I’ll start picking things up that I should be leaving after the examinations, I’ll be cleaning up the house, and I’ll be sleeping a lot. I’ll constantly think about the things that I’ll be able to do after the exams, and it’s really debilitating for my concentration, honestly, because I’m using up all my resources fantasizing, not studying. It’s like my brain’s switched to “relaxed” mode without my permission.
I keep telling myself it’s literally the final stretch, and tripping at the finish line is NOT a good thing, but apparently my brain seems to have already assumed I have finished. It’s a very annoying thing.
Maybe it was the 3 research papers I crammed in the final week, and my brain’s worn out (or at least it assumed the worst was behind us, or that the effort it exerted was similar to the final exams, so it assumed was time to relax or something).
I want to give my brain a name. I shall name her June, in commemoration of today, where she is officially recognized as the functioning entity of my existence.
Danrom, part zwei
Another reason why I really, really, really need a vacation: I’m falling ill. I haven’t been sick in 3 years, and that last illness was during the A’ Levels. There’s finals week to go, so… yeah.
Anyway, my Behavioural Neuroscience final exam was today, and I feel a bit annoyed by the whole thing because it ended earlier than my other classes (I STILL HATE YOU, PHILOSOPHY). That was my favourite class, and I mean, the professor was absolutely brilliant. I’d honestly take his class again because he’s just that damn good. Meanwhile, Philosophy is the very last exam of the quarter, and GOOD GOD, I HATE YOU.
Wait, let me translate this into PL.
UD: Everything
Hxy: x hates y
Lx: x is the last exam of the quarter
Px: x is a person
e: Elaine
p: Philosophy 250 course
(?e)(?p)(Pe & Lp) ? Hep
I have a headache, and I’m taking today off from studying. I’ve been compiling my music in Excel for some chillaxin’, AND HERE ARE MY RESULTS THUS FAR:
I’m sure nearly everything labeled Tokyo Disneyland was by Jac. xD Also, Jac, YOU’RE SO MEAN TO GIVE ME 64KBPS MP3S!!! D:
Lastly, a couple of fun facts. FFX-2’s Paine is voiced by Gwendoline Yeo. Turns out she’s the niece of Singapore’s Minister of Foreign Affairs George Yeo (if Wikipedia is to be believed). I have lots of TL;DR thoughts on this, not least about the elitist structure of Singapore and how all our ministers seem to be educated abroad, but whatever.
Number 2: James Arnold Taylor, who voices Tidus in FFX, voiced Jack Sparrow and Timon in KHII. I wanted to LOL so hard. JACK SPARROW IS TIMON O SHIT
Danrom
A couple of thoughts.
1. I realized the reason I didn’t like Atonement that much was because it was too deliberate. The camera’s presence was too obvious, and I was spending my time watching the positioning and being aware of the camera instead of the movie itself. I mean, that 4 minute shot of the beach just screamed I HAVE A CAMERA HERE. I was so distracted by the filmmaking techniques I wasn’t as involved in the story as it should have.
2. Grudges. I have them.
3. I really, really, really need a vacation. I feel burned out.
RL
Can I just say that I hate adult life? It makes me neurotic.
