Belle puzzle
Despite the oddness of the face, I did like this a lot. The style of painting struck me particularly.
Bought it for SGD$65. Hope it won’t go to waste.
Oh, Ken.
Ken: Hey, it’s Ken speaking.
Me: Hey Ken, it’s Elaine. I’m at the airport now.
Ken: Elaine?
*pause*
Ken: I don’t know an Elaine.
Me: STOP IT KEN!
Ken: *laughs*
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Ken: Hey mom, I didn’t pick up Elaine at the airport. She said she wanted to stay in Singapore so she didn’t catch the flight back.
Aunt: Oh really?!
Ken: Yeah, she said something about wanting to stay with her family for a couple more weeks.
Aunt: REALLY?!
Me: *hits Ken*
Ken: Yeah, she called me and said I didn’t need to pick her up.
Aunt: YOU LIE, KEN. LET ME TALK TO HER.
Ken: *laughs*
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Ken: Not a very big fan of musicals. I went to watch CATS, and I didn’t get it at all. It was just a whole bunch of cats prancing around… and that song, that’s really popular?
Me: Yeah?
Ken: I swear, they must’ve sung that shit about 10 times. I’m like, I GET IT.
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Ken: Are you sure you don’t need me to help you?
Me: I’m fine, Ken.
Ken: Are you sure? If you fall and kill yourself down those stairs I’m not going to get you!
“… we must avoid clinging to the edifice of a decadent past.”
So I found an AC point in the airport, so my laptop’s running pretty happily now. ^__^
I’m not sure what to do right now.
With this second time, I was the one that was the most affected among the four of us. I’m pretty sure when I reach Columbus I’m going to have a good cry until I go to sleep.
It’s the loneliness. I think it’s only when you have company when you realize how awful the prospect of loneliness is. The first time I wasn’t so attached to my family or my friends - getting stuck with them 24/7 does things to you - but now, the seperation is all the more painful. I will get used to the loneliness, I’m sure of it. I got used to it the first time I got here… but the terrible realization that this will be your life for the next year… I don’t want to live my life alone. This stark contrast of what my life is in Singapore compared to the one I have in Columbus… I would choose Singapore.
I think that’s why people seek companionship. I can just imagine how my mom and dad were so alone when they came to Columbus and I think it’s an absolutely beautiful thing that they met each other. According to Pea, their courtship sounds like a fairy tale, but whatever. I doubt mine will be, when now I’m even more aware that any hand of friendship is now my desperate attempt at relationships. It’s not a bad thing, but now I feel the motivation is wrong. I think I’ll wind up biting the very hand that feeds me, and further isolate myself.
I think what frightens me most is complete isolation. I will have no company in Columbus, and my ties with Singapore grow weaker and weaker. I am constantly afraid that one day I will look at my sister and realize how much I’ve missed out on her life.
So here I am, another ten hours away from Columbus, thinking - once again - that everything is wrong; I shouldn’t be here; I want to go home; only now I know I have no future to return to. Sacrificing life for academics… isn’t it grand?
How is it people can adapt so well to an alien environment, utterly alone? Dad was telling me how he had colleagues accepting jobs in Yale and Harvard, only to come back 2 weeks later citing the inability to adjust as the factor.
Looking back… Was I happy in Columbus? I don’t recall. I suppose that’s the whole point of ’starting anew’, where you wind up making completely new friends and finding new communities to participate in. I don’t think I want to start anew… because I am happy with the life I have. A very long time ago, I remember posting something about adaptation, and I resisted it. It’s me, completely. My problem.
But I will adapt, eventually. Five weeks of crying and resentment should cover it.
HELLO PORTLAND
*waves to Laura*
Fuck.
NORTHWEST AIRLINES 6
Singapore-Changi, Singapore (SIN) on August 29, 2007 (Wednesday) at 6:00am
Tokyo-Narita, Japan (NRT) on August 29, 2007 (Wednesday) at 2.25 pm
Tokyo-Narita, Japan (NRT) on August 29, 2007 (Wednesday) at 3.25 pm
Portland-Int’l, OR (PDX) on August 29, 2007 (Wednesday) at 8:30am
NORTHWEST AIRLINES 590
Portland-Int’l, OR (PDX) on August 29, 2007 (Wednesday) at 12:10pm
Minneapolis/St. Paul-Int’l, MN (MSP) on August 29, 2007 (Wednesday) at 5:34pm
NORTHWEST AIRLINES 184
Minneapolis/St. Paul-Int’l, MN (MSP) on August 29, 2007 (Wednesday) at 7:20pm
Columbus on August 29, 2007 (Wednesday) at 10:11pm
It’s a 28 hour flight, and the worst thing is that I have no aisle seat. I have a weirdass right leg that likes to act up and I need to get up and walk around every couple of hours because of it. It’s not going to be happy if I keep shoving my ass up against the guy on the aisle attempting to get out. Hopefully I can convince the person at the counter tomorrow to get me one.
Mom keeps shoving more and more stuff into my bag, and when there’s no more room, she brings out yet another bag and says ‘well, you can check in two pieces of luggage, right?’ Yes, mom, but I don’t want to check in two pieces of luggage. My backpack’s going to be as heavy as shit when I’m stuffing my laptop in there, and I am not carrying another 10kg worth of nonsense that I can live without.
Does anyone have experience with Northwest? I’ve flown United, and if Northwest is worse than that, I’m not going to be one happy person at the end of the flight.
From now on, I am going to take pictures of every airport I’ve been to. Or collect magnets, whatever.
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On another note, I’ve joined the RP raisethecolors on GreatestJournal, and I’ll be playing Calypso! (I would have loved to play Sao Feng and half of the Brethren Court, but I doubt I’ll have time to play more than two characters. But whatever, maybe the draw will be too great. One day.) So here I am, pimping the comm, because we need more members! Most of the main characters have been snapped up, but here’s the character list. Join join join!
If you don’t like it, shut up.
*grumbles*
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On a more lighter note…
Me: Hey, do you still like Underworld?
Pea: Yeah!
Me: I got a 2 disc special edition or something like that. I bought it and then got bored, do you want it?
Pea: OMG YES!
Me: … You still like Underworld, huh?
Pea: It’s one of my favorite movies!
Me: Y’know, people list Godfather or Gone with the Wind or Titanic as their favorite movies… for you, it’s UNDERWORLD. WAAAAHOW
Pea: Shuddap!
